We Don't Just Grieve Over The Dead
My baby has a driver's license. He's the first kid out of my three to get his license. My oldest has no desire to drive. My middle son has a bike that gets him to most the places he wants to go so he hasn't even taken driver's ed yet. But my baby has a license. I've been working on letting go for a long time. Really since the day my oldest looked back at me, giggled, and RAN THE OTHER WAY when he was just over a year old. I remember that moment vividly. I knew that was the beginning of letting go. And I was right. I've been letting go in bits and pieces since then. I knew this, of course. But this driver's license thing really hit me. And last night, while I laid awake in bed with my friend Blanche (aka...my anxiety) telling me lots of stories in a way she hasn't in a very long time...it hit me. I'm grieving. This feeling is so familiar. I've been with grief for 9 years now, since my mom wa